Everlasing Obscurity

Bring me back into the world of twists and turns, seeing endless color,
hallucinations and illusion, taking me away into the place of excitement and purity. Maybe it was the drug, a high lasting so long. I could find my way inside of you. I could live inside the artwork, I could feel the creation of everything, I have seen it in the eyes, they were everywhere, looking at me, the real me.

I couldn't hear the sounds for so long, I couldn't taste the food, the scent made me miserable and the illusion made me feel empty, after feeling this, nothing has come close to the amazement I felt, I can feel rain pouring on me. my hair Soaking wet. I don't want to respond to this nothingness, there is empty space and rejection from another.

I don't try anymore with them, I found myself in a different world,
existing in a place of organic essence, the night was the same, wondering how i might come in contact with this new way of life.

Simple freedom

I am scattered everywhere, You might not recognize me. Let me speak to life so it can free me from this disease. Find my roots, don't look back to the place of desire. I will be living in an undisturbed place, where nothing can offend me.

Where no discrimination can exist, where your unconscious mind is an untold story and a distant memory. I'll see a place without attachment and neediness, I will be able to run freely without restraint, in this place all those things I lost will be returned to me, In this place everyone will understand and accept contradiction, because its ok.

So here I can rest, because there is no right and wrong, there is just what is, and what is is all we need, its peaceful and there is no need for anything else, there is no gain and there is no loss, because it doesn't matter, and he have what we have and its all at ease, and we are free from it all. I will one day be released from this entanglement and destruction.

Euphoria

Waking up on a cool summer morning the sun warming my face, next to everything, I became aware of something new, I was seeing a world with out fear, separation, concepts, or thoughts for the first time in my life. All of the imagined scenarios, all my fear of the unknown, all my worries, the world I knew and the world itself no longer existed in a sense. I was not me, although I was essentially myself, I had opened my eyes, but it was not my eyes I was seeing with. I was seeing with every thing that ever was and ever could have been, I saw all the un-manifested unimagined possibilities at hand, it had the most unusual effect. Life was new, life was love, life was crisp and clean, it was bright, and beautiful, it was warming and kind, it was reassuring and safe, life had shown itself to me, Love had shown me the truth of life. Everything was familiar yet so unrecognizable at the same time. Life became filled with love that had surfaced up from the depths of illusion and poured out all around me.

Pure, and rich I felt life showing me something beyond reason, beyond my previous perception of reality, giving me an understanding of the infinite, life took place beyond time, love looked inside me and as I looked into myself I was everything, but still I was there, Although I was nothing but a thought, This love of my own made a connection with my being, and I felt it surround me, it captured my eyes and sifted its way inside my soul, I soon found myself swimming through the vessels of everlasting infinite power and life. I could see with more than my eyes, I could feel with more than touch. I drifted through currents into the emptiness of everything and beyond. I became life, I stepped inside euphoria.


random insight: Most people are on the world, not in it—have no conscious sympathy or relationship to anything about them—undiffused, separate, and rigidly alone like marbles of polished stone, touching but separate. -John Muir